guilty

Cooper,

This weekend your Daddy and I actually laughed.  I feel guilty about it because maybe it's too soon to laugh?  We went to a wildlife park here outside of town.  Daddy tried to get me to ride a camel.  But I did feed the giraffes.  We had fun.  We watched children playing on the playground and I thought of you.  I thought of things that I'll never get the chance to see you do.  I like to think that you'll get to do them in Heaven and then one day Grandma and you will tell me all about them.  One day we'll see you again.

Daddy's having surgery tomorrow.  I'm scared thinking about it.  Please stay with Daddy tomorrow.  Keep him safe.

i'll love you forever.
Momma